"Who, or what, exactly is Pepper?"

Pepper (they/them) is a rather shy and reclusive buggy-foxy creature that has an adoration for naturalism, plush fox toys, bugs and foxes (other than themself, of course), pet-monster type media (such as Pokemon and Digimon) and a particular fascination for virtual pet toys. So much so, in fact, that Pepper has a special "sixth sense" that allows them to detect when a virtual pet nearby has been abandoned or broken, so they can rush to the scene and rescue it!

Though they live in a seemingly distant realm, Pepper often has to venture out of it for variable reasons, where they encounter many things that are strange and confusing (often to the point of frustration) but also those with an endearing beauty and mystery to them, too.

Pepper is my primarily my sona and serves as a visual projection of me being a hybrid arthropod/silver-morph red fox therian or otherkin. In a way, Pepper is also both a response to the many years worth of struggles I have faced as a result of ableism that I have faced and (sadly) can often continue to face as an autistic being (sadly, such is the case for many disabled individuals), and the alienation that I still struggle with often at the hands of others. Likewise, Pepper is also a celebration of my dearest special interests and hyperfixations, as well as the unparalleled feelings of euphoria that come with being so deeply immersed in them.

Okay, but what is Pepper supposed to be?

Pepper is a silver-morph (melanistic) red fox (Vulpes vulpes), with various arthropods (primarily ectoparasitic insects and arachnids) living on and inside their body, with the same consciousness between spread equally amongst both the bugs and the fox- the latter being the "mothership", if you will. It is worth noting that Pepper can both shapeshift into different forms, albeit not always able to completely conceal certain parts of their bugfox body; certain forms that are a little more out of Pepper's comfort zone (such as animals other than foxes or terrestrial arthropods) will often fail to conceal Pepper's fox ears or tail completely. Pepper is also able to distort and extend the length of their body, seemingly indefinitely. Pepper often likes to distort into elongated, tubular forms when they are happy or relaxed, with scutigeromorph-like appendages sometimes emerging from their thick coat. Sometimes they even tuck their fox legs into their fur and attain a worm-like form!

Where did Pepper come from?

They hatched from a bugfox egg!

Though the above is true too, Pepper was originally an entity distinct from myself. The first piece I ever produced of them, the one that would eventually become my sona, was produced in early January of 2021 (pictured above). At the time of drawing the piece, I was still very much a closeted otherkin, on top of heavily masking so much of myself due to factors such as a profound sense of angst stemming from feelings of alienated loneliness as an autistic adult and (as mentioned before) much internalised ableism, as well as a persistent undercurrent of profound trauma. I remember sketching and inking it all in one sitting and felt a certain unprecedented connection to this new fox entity I had just drawn. I kept drawing them more in the months (and indeed years) that followed, finding they were a cathartic outlet for many of the feelings of alienation, anger and fear that I so often felt (and can very much do this day in some capacity). Similarly, drawing Pepper did also serve as a way of exploring and coming to terms with my aspects of my identity, especially my gender and sexuality as an agender/NB and ace/aro being, as well as of course realising that I am an otherkin (or more specifically, a bugfoxkin!).

It was then soon after, when I ended up taking part in Hourly Comic Day in 2021 (as a fun little exercise), I ended up drawing Pepper as myself and...to use the cliche, the rest is history.

Regardless, I think whilst other factors have helped me along in unmasking and allowing myself to be what I know I am, creating and drawing Pepper has helped a lot with figuring out my identity.

Some miscellaneous facts about Pepper!!

• Pepper has quite a sweet tooth, and enjoys foraging from raspberry bushes especially! They also enjoy eating treesap or beetle jelly pots.
• On each of their outer hindlegs, Pepper has a marking resembling a Tamagotchi fused with the cephalothorax of a tick. Not even Pepper knows why they are there but they're very fond of having them!
• Pepper's body is sometimes haunted by the ghosts of ectoparasitic bugs that got lost on the way to the boundless moist flesh and blood sphere in the Ixodida Afterlife. Though Pepper doesn't really know how to help them, they're sometimes happy to chat with them.
• Much like their real-world counterpart, Pepper loves collecting plushes of foxes! They never go to sleep in their bugfox den without at least one to snuggle up with. Akin again to their real-world counterpart, amongst Pepper's favourites are a pair of fennec fox plushes named Lucy and Fen, whom they love to cuddle up to after a difficult day.
• Their favourite Pokemon include Eevee (their all-time favourite!), Zorua, Heracross, Ariados, Ninjask, Vulpix, Shedinja, Fennekin and Volcarona.
• Likewise, their favourite Digimon include Tentomon (again, their all-time favourite!), Kyubimon, Numemon, Renamon, Garurumon, Diaboromon, Kabuterimon, Kuwagamon, HerculesKabuterimon and Okuwamon.
• Though they often shapeshift to blend in with others and out of profound shyness, Pepper will remain in their true bugfox form around the few other beings they are the most fond of.
• Pepper has very peculiar eyes, not at all like those typical of red foxes (or any mammal for that matter), as they are much more akin to superposition compound eyes of insects such as certain moths. Their "pupils" are actually psuedopupils, perhaps most similar to those of a praying mantis!
• Pepper likes to paint with whatever they can find in terms of pigments, though because they are a bugfox and do not have hands like humans, they will paint using their paws and Scutigeromorph leg-like appendages concealed within their thick coat!